Tag Archives: AHBL

STILL HERE

By Julie | Published: March 3, 2011
It’s been a dark, dark year. I don’t mean to be dramatic. It just really has been. A year from hell. A year ago today— when I got the call. You know the one. The one that buckles your knees. Steals your breath. Twists your world. Leaves you reeling. Gasping for air. Suddenly, as happens [...]
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BEST ACTRESS IN A PAINFUL ROLE

By Julie | Published: February 28, 2011
Despite my love affair with some of the gowns on the red carpet last night—Halle! Hilary! Gwyneth!—I got a little distracted when I saw a certain actress at this year’s Ocsars. This particular woman is a reminder to me of how much can change in a year. Or in a single, fateful March day. And [...]
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BRING BACK THE MUSIC

By Julie | Published: November 10, 2010
Well, it’s been months without music over here. Grrrr. It’s just one of the many things AHBL stole from me. I will get my music back but, for now, I just can’t seem to land on what works for me. I’ve tried classical. I’m just not really in a classical mood lately. I’ve tried sad [...]
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NEW

By Julie | Published: October 3, 2010
Today was a day I was kind of hoping wouldn’t come, for reasons that have nothing to do with the new number attached to my age. It’s just been about The Hardest Year Ever, and this date… Well. I just was wishing we could skip it. We couldn’t, of course. But thanks to the beautiful, [...]
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WRESTLING

By Julie | Published: September 3, 2010
Six months ago exactly, in the wee hours of the morning, I sent myself two emails while laying in bed. I had been reading a chapter on my YouVersion app. I had never sent myself this kind of email before. I have never done it since. I don’t remember why I did. But I do [...]
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COUNTER-CULTURAL

By Julie | Published: August 14, 2010
Learning how to grieve...
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COURAGE, PLEASE

By Julie | Published: August 10, 2010
Sometimes even to live is an act of courage. - Seneca, first century a.d.
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DOES THIS COUNT AS ANNOYING?

By Julie | Published: July 25, 2010
Music has been sort of a mine field for me lately, which is a bummer because usually it’s been more of a comfort, or an inspiration—or at least a pastime. The problem is… I’m a word girl. And, for the moment at least, I’m finding I need to stay away from certain types of words. [...]
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GRIEF

By Julie | Published: June 22, 2010
I see myself as a fairly capable person. I have – for some reason – been blessed with an income, a home, food, clothes, and a pretty darn good life. I have resources. Doctors, therapists, knowledge, friends, family, faith – support from every angle. And still, most days lately have me wondering if I can [...]
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REALITY CHECK

By Julie | Published: June 17, 2010
Today, in a rather unexpected place, I read these words: Despair is just another way of avoiding grief. Interesting… Especially since despair is a word that has been sticking to me this week. I’m going to have to think about that statement. I might agree. I also might choose a little despair now and then so I [...]
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